10.30.2011

Back in Haiti

Back in Haiti again. It’s been a while, since middle of July, and it seem so long ago that I was here. When we left Chicago this with Tim (retired firefighter) there was light frost on the ground, by the time we’ve arrived in Haiti, it was hot, very hot. The pilot said it was 87 degrees, but the body felt like mid 90’s! Trip was very uneventful, talked with few people on their journey and we’ve made it on time to Port-au-Prince. Going through passport check was really quick today and our luggage (2 - 50lbs bags) were already waiting on us. One of the porters recognized the orange IFJ shirts and told us that Rene was waining. This time out of the baggage claim they check claim checks! Wow, that’s a first time, Haiti is changing! Rene waiting for us with avery big smile. First deep breath brought taste of Haiti (the only deep breath for today), I quickly recognized the smell of Haiti. 
At the compound Patty was entertaining little Patty and Rene and Frantzy’s wives. 
So glad to see them all. Took Tim for a short stroll around the compound, introduced him to many kids as they were calling my name (Mr. Bill, Mr. Bill). Hugs from many, I sure missed that!
We came up with a game plan for tomorrow, had a great dinner made by Rose. Miriam and Sarah came back from the tent city orphanage with 2 girls, and of course more hugs and introductions. Went over to see the kids at the movie night and grabbed a shower. So my body is still in shock, from the frost in Chicago, to heat in PAP and a cold shower, and yet my mind is soooo refreshed. Emotions to see all of the kids are amazing. It seem like it has been so long since I was here, and yet at times seems that I was just here last week (maybe it only felt like that because my wife was here last week and I heard all the stories about the kids). 
I don’t know when I will be able to post since the Internet is down at this time. 
Needless to say, I am looking forward to tomorrow. 
Bill  

10.27.2011

IS THERE PURPOSE?


It’s been a few days since returning from the “bush” yet my mind continues to picture the various scenes that remain etched in my mind.  I would love to have a progress report on so many of the lives we witnessed in such despair. 

The wife of the pastor, where we stayed, came to New Life two days ago.  She has come all this way from the mountain to have a simple surgery that is not possible – or for sure not safe to have in a facility there. She was fortunate to have someone who donated the money for her to come for treatment. She spoke to Miriam and me about the terrible need they have for a Malnutrition Center.  It was explained that years ago they built a little building and provided meals for the children and teaching for the parents/caregivers.  Obvious malnutrition had to be present to “qualify” for the help.  While it was a success for a period of time, it was discovered that care givers stopped feeding their children, who in turn became malnourished, hoping they would be included in the program. A type of thinking we can’t imagine.  But now, this woman has a vision of a better way to feed these children and promote good nutrition – she just needs the money to do so.  I want to return home and raise money to keep these children alive, and God will use her to do the hard part.

There are many cultural beliefs and thinking that have been passed on from generation to generation. While it may not make sense to us – or seem logical – it is their belief, just the same.  With education opportunities being expensive and unavailable in many areas, it is difficult to teach an alternative to existing ways of functioning.

I would have to admit that I am fighting discouragement today.    I get overwhelmed and feel like I’ve not really done anything of true value.  I know the enemy is celebrating my feelings and hopes I give up trying.  Then I look out and see all the children here and realize that every one of them is a miracle.  Each one has been rescued from the depths of poverty, or near death illness.  We have a little boy right now struggling to survive. He is in the clinic here at New Life getting care 24/7.  His life would have ended, had we left him in the mountains.  I have to keep reminding myself of the people who WERE helped – and not the millions still struggling.

Yesterday I went to the market with the cook.  It is an open air market with everything imaginable – from food to shoes. The odor is less than pleasant, and you have to avoid walking in the mud and excrement as able.  A woman was selling underwear which were safety pinned to a hanger and she hung the hanger on the basket she carried on her head filled with other random items.  Another woman sat in front of her display of fish which had been dried in the sun, and then fried to a darkened brown.  She had them creatively displayed, hoping for a buyer. I KNEW it wouldn’t be me…

 It was interesting to me that there are people at the market who you hire to walk thru the market with you to carry your purchases, and another person hired to watch your truck (assuming you have one) as you leave the bags in the truck and return for more.  The woman caring the bags for the cook yesterday was very pregnant and frail – yet she carried a big gunny sack of potatoes on her head back to the truck.  I learned that she was having her fourth child and intended to have it at home, as she couldn’t afford to go to a hospital.  When we left she was given change, that was less than a dollar for her many trips to the truck.  As we drove away I saw her approaching someone else, hoping to be needed in an effort to earn more money for food for her family.

I had an experience one day while driving in the mountains.  I felt defeat creeping in and taking over my mind set.  I asked God why He ever sent me to Haiti – or was it ME that thought I should come here which was why I was struggling?  I became very confused and questioned my purpose.  I felt very ineffective and was asking God what I could possibly do here that would bring about change.  I sat for a long time looking out the window at the despair from one little shack to the next.  Thankfully I had this thought that humbled me and gave me strength.  God knows EVERYTHING that goes on here and realizes every mountain and obstacle that stands in the way.  He didn’t tell me, “GO – and don’t come back until you bring about change and help all the people!”  He said, “Go and help the people I place in your path.  You are merely one little thread in the huge tapestry of people who go to make a difference in Haiti in addition to the hard working Haitians who strive to improve their country.  Having the mentality of a “fixer” – I felt like a failure.  But yesterday I had a little boy who kept showing me his drawing after every stroke – he was so proud of it, and I cheered him on.  Another little girl grabbed my hand, led me to a bench and just wanted to be held.  The little boy I wrote about in July, named Son Son who I adore gave me a tight hug at bedtime that seemed to last for hours – then his beautiful face looked up and he said, “I love you very, very much!”  I guess God uses me for the simple things.  So I am determined to keep going, one dear child at a time.

Please keep praying … Patty

10.24.2011

Medical Mission Trip - A Week in the Bush

It has been three days since we returned from the medical mission trip in the lower peninsula of Haiti in the mountainous area. I still struggle with how to put the experience into words. May I begin by thanking all of you who offered prayers on behalf of our team during our efforts to serve God’s people. I knew before I went that it would be an emotional roller coaster, and that it was.

Part of the difficulty was the length of the trip and the conditions of the roads. It took nearly nine hours to get to the location which we called “home” for five nights. The roads were so treacherous that we all felt like our bodies and brains had been jarred and bruised permanently. The last four hours of the drive up into the mountain had steep drop offs, sharp curves and the road was made up of very large pieces of rock, huge pot holes and sometimes a foot of water! Going ahead of us was what we would call a huge dump truck – which carried all of our supplies and bags.

Arriving in the dark, exhausted, and hungry made the first night a bit unsettling. Four of us were given the Pastor’s home which was a one room building, smaller than my bedroom, with a tin roof. There were many bugs I had never seen before on the walls and crawling about. We had to walk thru a trail into the woods to find the outhouse. It’s conditions made me queasy, so I claimed a little area of my own in the woods which became my “spot” for further needs in that area… Cold bucket baths behind a brick wall was a challenge for me, as well.

Our first clinic was held in a small building across the street from where we were sleeping. By 8:00 a.m. many people had gathered. One man was brought on a homemade stretcher – carried by family members. Once we had established our “stations” for the clinic, being: patient assessment, wound care, scabies treatment, and the pharmacy we opened for business. A triage of the 100’s waiting was performed and what appeared to be the most in need came first. The man on the stretcher was seen right away and it was determined by his symptoms that he was suffering with TB (tuberculosis) and after a five hour wait we gave him the finances to go three hours away to a small hospital for treatment. He was accompanied by a man 36 years old whose abdomen and lower legs/feet were so hugely swollen that he could barely breathe, walk or sit. It was decided he was in liver failure and also needed a hospital setting. The third patient was a four year old boy whose mother died in January and his father has been caring for him. He, too, had swelling of the face and lower extremities. It was determined that he was suffering with a severe form of malnutrition where the lack of protein eventually makes the body begin to break down. A clear liquid was oozing from his feet and hands. (He and his father remained in this building for four nights waiting to come back with the team to get medical treatment – hoping the boy would not die before we could get him back to Port-au-Prince. Together they slept on a thin mattress - rarely seeing daylight in the darkness of the room. The little boy has improved slightly here at New Life in the one tiny, room used as a clinic. This dear boy has not yet smiled, but keeps a firm hold around his father’s neck. The love shown by his father makes me cry.

There was also a young woman who came to the clinic in labor. It was determined that we could not send her back home, so she joined the man with his child in the back, dark room of the building. There happened to be a mid-wife (toothless old woman, whose thighs were the size of my upper arms) in the crowd which had gathered who began massaging the woman’s pregnant tummy along with other unusual customs – namely tying a piece of thin material right above the woman’s pregnant stomach. She continued to adjust this material as the pregnancy advanced (?).

We ended up treating over 300 people that day and we were all pretty exhausted and speechless at what we had seen and experienced. After dinner a few of us walked over to see how the woman’s labor was progressing. By 8:45 p.m., and without the slightest “peep” out of the woman in labor, we witnessed the birth of a baby boy by flashlight and an oil lamp brought by the family. Other customs came to play which included putting a tight wrap of material around the infant’s abdomen, three layers of clothes and two hats! (While each of us was dripping with sweat!) THEN the midwife hung the child upside down by his feet and swung him around, followed by throwing him up in the air and catching him three times in a row. I did very poorly handling that part and had to turn my back and cover my eyes as I screamed repeatedly, “NO!” It was very upsetting to watch. By the next morning our newborn baby, mother and family were on their way – with the prayers and hope that we wouldn’t see the little child at a future clinic. What will become of baby Samuel?

On day two, after driving up the mountain for nearly an hour we came to the village for our second clinic. We immediately went into action as we found a 10 year old girl who just that morning had a seizure and fell into a fire used for cooking. Her burns covered most of her right side, left hand and face. Somehow we had enough supplies and antibiotic ointment to carefully cover her wounds - a sterile technique wasn’t even a choice! Her mother’s screams were so heart wrenching to hear. The adults and children at this clinic presented similar conditions: malnutrition, stomach aches from worm infestation, abscessed teeth, ear and body aches and many elderly so frail with no food or care. There was also a family who desired to give away their two year old daughter. Many other parents wanted us to take their children as well. Three more sick children were brought back to our “home base” and lived on the floor by our father and son, waiting for the day we would be returning to New Life.

The young girl with the burns was taken to a “hospital” in a town called Pestel. We had to bring ALL of her supplies and needs, from the sheet to lie across the torn mattress and rusted hospital bed, to all dressings, food and even pain medication. The hospital consists of one room with rusted bed frames and an old dental chair for seating. (This is the hospital/clinic that Impact for Jesus purchased a pickup-truck for a Dr. and sends monthly money to purchase needed supplies.) Because there isn’t a medical facility for miles – there is NO way they can keep any kind of supplies on hand. I could barely leave this listless child and distraught mother behind.

Our team then went via a homemade boat across the sea to one of the Haitian islands. The people on this island have NO medical care and NO drinking water! The children half dressed, with naked bottoms ran to greet us. They were so excited to see anyone coming to give them attention. We administered worming medication to over two hundred children and left vitamins and boxes of food. The Pastor who traveled with us talked to this large group of children about Jesus Christ and gave them an opportunity to accept Christ. Many children came forward for prayer. I commented that while we don’t know what is in the hearts and minds of these children, I know there will come a day when at least one of these children will share their testimony about how a missionary came to their island when he/she was a young boy/girl and accepted Christ as his/her Savior – who has since been the center of their life!

That evening a few of us decided to drive back to the hospital to see if the young girl was doing OK and to buy food for her and her mother. We found that she actually had an IV in place to replace the oozing fluids, but unfortunately had a very high fever. The Dr. on duty said he had a bigger problem in another room. He had a young pregnant mother in labor. The Dr. suspected that the baby was hydrocephalic and the head was too big to clear the birth canal. Again we went into action and after some deliberation put a small mattress on the floor of our vehicle and took the woman back to the boat we had used and they were able to take her on a 20 min. boat ride to another town to a facility that hopefully had the ability to perform a c-section. Without a c-section, both the mother and child would die. (We learned the next day that the mother and child were fine and the child merely had a large head. Again, God provided the means and directions for us to be in the right place, at the right time.)

On our last day of clinic a mother brought her three month old baby who had burns on both cheeks of her buttocks. A lantern had fallen onto the child who was lying nearby. Please keep in mind that the people living in these areas are living in huts made out of woven sticks or dried palm leaves with mud floors. Few have bricked one room houses. This baby was in such pain and she, too, needed to be treated at the Pestel hospital. Five of us took the baby, mother and grandmother to Pestel – another 60 minute jarring drive. I’m not proud of myself – but it was at this hospital visit my anger for the conditions and lack of supplies took on a voice – MINE! This infant needed IV fluids. An attempt was made with the one and only IV needle – which wasn’t a success. I did my best to support and encourage the mother who was visibly shaken by the screams of her dear baby. And, if you know me, my tears began flowing, too! A Dr. asked why I was crying and I made it quite clear that I feared I was leaving both the infant and young girl to die. NO antibiotics, not even Tylenol! Can you imagine the number of people who DO die because there are simply no supplies or available places for medical care? Just look at what we experienced in THREE days? What must it have been like every day before we arrived and every day hereafter?

As the week continued – our room that seemed unbearable on day one became our anticipated abode at the end of a tiring day. One evening when we returned, we heard that a man had come during the day. He had learned that there were medical people present. He was unable to urinate and was very distended and uncomfortable. The following day, we unexpectantly found a lone catheter in a supply bag! The man was catheterized and taken to a hospital about five hours away. We learned that he died the next day.

When it was time to return back to New Life the big truck was reloaded with supplies. Only this time there were the five children, each with a parent loaded in the back, as well. We all successfully made the longggg journey back which seemed to last forever.

Renee Plaza and her cousin Lori, who were valued members of the team, returned home yesterday. I really miss them. I am staying for another week and intend to spend some time with the children here. One of the children we brought back who was totally listless and unable to hold his head up or walk (age 5) began walking in the clinic here today. We all clapped and encouraged him. His mother beamed. She thinks that the food he has received has made him stronger. A Dr. will be coming tomorrow to examine and evaluate the children.

It has been a quiet day as I tried to re-group and digest this past week. I am happy that I went on the mission and was able to see God in the midst as He placed specific people in our path to help. We have had to focus on the people who we WERE able to help, not those we didn’t. We estimate that about 1,000 people were seen in the various clinics. Without having anything but over the counter medication to offer, I question how many received what they really needed. But what I do know is that each one received individual attention and hopefully our presence made them see that they haven’t been forgotten. I’ve realized my passion is interacting with one individual at a time. I strived to stare into their eyes and offer a smile, to point to the heavens and proclaim God’s love for them. As we started down the mountains and I stared at the shacks, half dressed children, people barefooted carrying plastic jugs to go get water miles away, young children riding donkeys on make shift saddles, and little ones sitting in dirt returning my wave with such excitement, tears streamed down my cheeks, as they are now. The depravity is bewildering. Not just in Haiti – but many places around the world. Why them – and not me?

We must keep trying. We must continue to work as one body praying for God to continue to direct us and keep us on His path. His heart has to be broken, too. He asked us over and again to take care of His children – so that is what we shall continue to do. The Haitian people’s smiles, their labor to prepare and serve us food, them giving up their home for us, and their words of thanksgiving and hugs were the gifts that God delivered to me. They were far greater than anything I gave in return.

Humbly,
Patty

7.31.2011

HOME - why not happy?

July 31, 2011

My two week journey to Haiti has come to an end.  The time there goes so quickly and all the experiences start running together.  (However, I do clearly recall the initial two hours of my trip being total havoc trying to check in at American Airlines, followed by leaving my computer on the plane AND now waiting for the suitcase which didn't arrive when I returned last night!  Of course the suitcase with all my dirty clothes arrived - but the one which contains ALL my sponsorship information and the precious thank you cards from the children remains missing.  I will anxiously await its return to my doorstep!)

Regardless of the number of trips I make to Haiti, the emotional experience of
returning home doesn't get easier.  I walked into our house last night and instead of craving the niceties of air conditioning, a bug-less bed and warm shower - I felt a flooding of the drastic changes of priorities, from what I had just experienced in Haiti merely hours before.

Today I won't have to carve out time to get to the tent city ophanage to be sure they received food since the visit there on Tuesday.  Or experience the sorrow of returning the three children back to the tent orphange from their brief stay at  New Life - where they received love, food and medical intervention. They arrived so despondent - and in such a short time they were laughing and playing.  Their weary eyes now bright with hope. 

I suspect that when the children at the tent city orphanage see Miriam returning with the children who recuperated at New Life the past few days, they will extend their little frail arms, and beg her to take them back with her this time - hoping to be rescued. Efforts to provide them with an actual safe building with food and water can't happen soon enough.  Isn't 19 months living under a battered tarp without any consistency of food, water, clothing and safety long enough? 

My mind keeps replaying our last night when all the children were gathered singing praise songs at an unbelievable volume and through tears I tried to encourage them, thank them and say goodbye.  We were to leave very early the next morning, so this was our final time together. However - at 5:30 a.m. Renee and I learned that our flight was changed, which gave us three additional hours at New Life.  When we walked toward the orphanage many of the children came running and flew into our arms with hugs - thinking we were staying.  It was certainly a bonus for us in many ways.  More photos, more "I love you's" more just being amounst the morning activities.  I was especially excited to see Son Son - the new boy who came who I wrote about in a previous blog - he was standing there with a long hose watering the garden. His new assignment.  It looked like he was fitting in just fine.  He came running when he saw me and threw his arms around me and looked up with those huge eyes of his and said, "I love you, Patty!"  Tears are rolling as I type this because if nothing else came out of our trip - I witnessed a young boy who God placed in my path in January, received into a home where I know he will be consistently loved and cared for.  How ironic his name is "Son Son" .... he feels like one to me.

I laid awake in bed last night,  unable to remove the common sights of the streets in Haiti from my mind - where literally hundreds and hundreds of people are all crammed together trying to sell whatever sits before them day after day after day to buy food.  Where young children carry heavy buckets and plastic containers of water for blocks upon blocks to their home where water doesn't exist. Or seeing people bathing and washing clothes in the same water shared by pigs and goats down stream.  We become frustrated when we have to wait through TWO stop light rotations.  A rush hour in Haiti is traffic at a stand still with motorcycles weaving between cars and up on sidewalks if need be, often transporting three to four people to a bike.  Mobs of people stand waiting for an hour for a "tap tap" (pick up truck - their public transportation) to arrive and then they pack in to the point that some stand on the bumper and hold on to anything they can. And I had to grin recalling my impatience when I have to wait through TWO stop light rotaions because  the jerk ahead of me wouldn't turn left on a yellow light. As I revisited all these visuals last night, I remembered my attitude over my lost bag after flying on an airplane.   I remined myself that there are millions upon millions of people in the world who will never even get a glimpse inside of an airplane and who don't have enough personal belongings to even fill a suitcase.  So surely I am blessed and need to knock off the whining.

I often wonder when I return if anything was significantly accomplished during my visit. Was there really a point to my visit when the needs are so overwhelming?  This morning I have concluded that my visit may have  been used as a reminder for me to continue  with my efforts here in the States on their behalf.  Their voice is silent here. The children and adults alike where we stay truly believe we are sent as an answer to their ongoing prayer for God not to forget them.  So - my efforts will continue to change hearts here, which inturn transforms lives there.  I will earnestly try not to become swallowed up by the fast pace and perceived personal needs and changes that surface and take over my mind in my safe haven of Naperville -- but rather I will recall the feeling when the children fuss over who gets to hold your actual hand, and who has to settle for a portion of your forearm.  For those children, whose future requires not just an education - but survival tactics  - I will remain their voice!  Please join me. 

Thank you for caring enough to even read the blog to share in our experiences and thank you for every prayer and every cent your have shared to make a difference for many!

7.29.2011

Special Day at the Beach for the Grace Girls!

Just a quick note to say we did beach day yesterday with Marie's girls. Some of the ladies at New Life who take care of the children also joined us with their families. It was a beautiful day with not a cloud in the sky. Rented a big bus, first stop New Life to pick all of us up and then off to Grace Hope Orphanage. When we arrived the girls where all ready to go, bathing suits on with hair braided. Of course, matching beads in hair to match bathing suits for all. Cathy, Patty and I all had three or four girls to a seat and off we went. Singing worship songs, eating candy and just plain catching up was the order of the day. We even tried to speak some English to see what the girls remembered and if they have advanced. As most of you are aware, the girls don't get out much so most eyes were focused on all of the interesting sights in the streets as we drove to the beach. I noticed the girls especially perked up whenever we went by someone selling ladies clothes. Should I be surprised that it isn't any different here then at home!!!! We arrived at the beach one and a half hours later. Stayed on shore long enough to count off, pray for everyone's safety and all were in the water in a blink of an eye. We became human floats for the little ones, through the beach ball around and taught the older girls to float and swim. Cathy, our triathlon participant, was the swim teacher for the day. The girls caught on early that this was her forte. Before I knew it, the girls were asking her to remove her sunglasses and get her head in the water! Breast stroke was the lesson for today and by the end they were like fish in water, promising we would all be a swim team next time with matching suits. Soon after, snack time was upon us. Bread and peanut butter all around as the girls were hungry. Had to remind them that lunch was coming shortly. Someone drove out from New Life with snacks and lunch for all. Finished up drinks and snacks and it was back into the water. Could have stayed in there all day as water temperature was like bathwater and crystal clear. Wasn't long before the lunch bell was ringing. Rice and beans, salad and beets were the order of the day. For dessert, a special treat, homemade brownies. Cathy gave up her medical kit spot in her luggage to make sure we had brownies mix for all the children this trip. Bless her heart. So Wednesday night after dinner the three of us got to it. Cathy poured the mix into the bowls while I mixed and Patty had the chief chef responsibility. She had to figure out the oven. The dial for the oven only had numbers one through six on it. So, as you can imagine, much experimentation was necessary. All in all, a great success and special treat for everyone. About 3:30 the call was for all out of the water. Time to change into something dry and hit the road! The trip home brought happy times as Sister Patty came through with hidden picture sheets and word searches for everyone. Of course, the day wouldn't be complete without one more piece of candy! After a few rain drops along the way and stops to drop some families off along our route, we arrived back at the girls orphanage. Saying goodbye is never easy, kisses, hugs and many blessings finished with, "see you next time". Back to New Life to enjoy a warm dinner and 7:00 devotions with the kids. For me, devotion time here is becoming bittersweet. Only one more evening with the children and my friend Chinaido who just loves to sing and worship our Lord and Savior! I will miss him. Thanks again to all that have been following our journey on FB and Haiti blog. Thank you for keeping us in prayer as well. See you soon,
Renee


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